Whole Shebang!

2 Dayyyysss!!!!

 

So for the last few days I have been feeling like a walking, talking, breathing band-aid. I have 4 patches on my abdomen at a time and they stay on for 48 hours until I change them with 4 new patches. After taking off the patches there is a sticky residue that is left behind that is near impossible to scrub off without taking 3 layers of skin with it. Ouch! I have yellow bruises on both arms where they have drawn my blood and my tooshie is throbbing sore at the moment. Ben administered my second progesterone (P in Oil) shot and OOOWWWWW! That one hurt! It was in the opposite check and I obviously didn't numb it as well as the last time. I felt the liquid going in and of course it couldn't go in fast enough due to the thickness! Ugh! I have to stay positive and hope the next one wont be so bad.

 

I have had an amazing burst of energy these past couple days and I'm not sure what has gotten into me. I am just so darn excited for Saturday to be here although we wont know the pregnancy results for another 2 weeks almost. Well, I lied, I slightly know what got into me yesterday. I may or may not have stopped at Biggby for a grande frozen caramel marvel WITH extra caramel! Ha! I had to splurge a little and since I have 2 days left I am going to eat what I want and have a darn coffee! C: I am just so full of life and it is starting to feel more real, this experience that is. I can't wait to share this moment with E & A as they have been waiting for this day much longer than I. It is a family's history in the making and I can look back knowing that I was a part of creating their beautiful family. Every time I think about it (which is becoming daily) it becomes more and more rewarding just being apart of things. I realize that this is all about E & A and their child(ren) but it is so wonderful how they make it about us too always wanting us to be comfortable.

 

I can only imagine the thoughts/worries going through E & A's minds not being able to be close to the (let's call it) baby making process, trusting us to do everything we can to keep their embryos safe and healthy. I would be a nervous wreck and want the surrogate to do everything I would do being pregnant. I suppose that seems a little psychotic but I try to keep myself in E's shoes and anything she suggests I fully think it through doing whatever she is most comfortable with.

 

A lot of conversation has come up about whether Ben and I should take the train into Chicago so that we don't have the stress of traffic the transfer day as the clinic wants to be as relaxed as possible. Also, E & A have offered several times to book us a hotel for the night before the transfer and the night of the transfer so that I can rest and be comfortable (not crammed in the car for 3 hours after the transfer). I guess we look at it more as we don't want them to spend the money on a hotel when we can go home and feel comfortable in our own environment. On the other hand they might be thinking they want the best possible results from the FET so maybe lying immediately after the transfer and not sitting up throughout a drive would be better chances to get a positive result. This is where it gets difficult as far as realizing their reasons for asking these types of questions and keeping that frame of mind about being in their shoes. We have decided to drive in on Saturday only because we would get back home quicker instead of having a 5 hour layover and waiting around. Also, we will not be staying in a hotel. I am fully comfortable being in the back seat lounged out for the ride. You can see me now with the feet up writing notes in my notebook to help my mom with her college paper. :) Great memories we will be making during this journey.

 

I can't believe in less than 2 days we will be driving down to Chicago again but for the actual FET Day. Crazy. Things seem like they are going by slow but within a blink we will be moving into our new home (hopefully we get great news back on our offer made), we will be 7 months pregnant, and talking about how we can't wait for E & A to see their precious baby for the first time! And Yes I say WE will be pregnant as in E, A, Ben, and I. How different is is to see this pregnancy as a group effort instead of just Ben and I with our last pregnancy. This baby already has so much love! Our love to help them grow until they can go home with E & A to be loved the rest of their life. Love that thought!

 

On that good note I will be signing off. Thank you for all your love and support and I can't wait to update you all again soon!

 

Love,