Bumps In The Road...

Let me start out by saying that I am a professional nail biter and my nerves most of the time will get the best of me. I can kick the habit for weeks to months and have went a year even but for some reason it always comes back to bite me, well my nails anyway. Lately I have been on edge and the nail habit has been a little to the extreme. I have been super anxious to make our journey official with E & A and have been patiently waiting to hear from our lawyer. It is so bad right now that even during suspenseful t.v. shows or driving I will go to town on those darn nails. OUCH! Every morning I wake up regretting the night before munching away at those finger nails. You would think I'd learn right? I know! I have been thinking about some techniques I could use to help me get my 'center' back. I absolutely hate the disgusting habit and NEED NEED NEED to knock it off immediately. I have done the yucky tasty nail paints (which make my cringe just thinking about them), the colorful/timely painting of my nails to warn me not to bite, and the husband approach (he is supposed to tell me to quit when he catches it). I just hope we get these contracts done or my poor poor nails will be no more I'm afraid. (WHOA! Just caught myself trying to slip the finger to the mouth in the middle of a typing pause. Ugh!) This is not good...

Why have I recently turned up the notch on my nail biting?! I realized a couple weeks ago that I was getting low on my birth control so I e-mailed our new nurse, Nurse T, to have her send me a prescription because I would need at least another week supply. I hadn't heard back so I e-mailed again. I'm the type that has to have everything planned in advance and I like knowing what is going on. When I still didn't hear back I began getting worried so I let E & A know what was going on to see what I should do from there because I didn't want to get off schedule over the little birth control pill. Finally today I received an e-mail from Nurse T but she wanted to let me know when my next appointment would be and whether I would be coming to the clinic for ultrasounds/blood work or if I would be staying in Michigan. I responded and again her know about the birth control and that I had some questions about the medications I received. YES, I got all my meds in the mail today! Exciting! Until I pulled out the intramuscular needles, EEEEEEEK! I cannot lie that I am afraid to start those but am glad I still have another month before I do. Nurse T called me and we worked everything out, she sent the prescription to my pharmacist and went over the meds list with me to make sure I had everything I needed.

The major thing I have been so anxious about is the legal side of things. I wish I could say that it was a major issue that we don't agree on that is holding us back but it is simply the lawyers conflicting schedules the last 2 weeks. E & A's lawyer went on vacation and ended up getting stuck in the Caribbean because of the hurricane that came through. By the time their lawyer got back and had everything all set up for them, our lawyer went on vacation and was not scheduled back until tomorrow! (Which is the day we are supposed to have the contracts signed, sealed, and delivered) If that doesn't frustrate us enough, we have not even heard from our lawyer to go over any details and the clinic has us on a timeline all the way up to our transfer date. The clinic has been generous to work with us letting us have until the 14th to get our contracts done but we are worrying that if the lawyers don't get it in gear asap we will miss our transfer date and have to wait until November, BIG SAD FACE! That means that I will need to continue on birth control and be sent a brand new medication/appointment calendar. This would annoy me a little because I already have my daily planner filled out stating every medication I need to take each day. It is better for me to keep track that way and you will see what I mean in my next post. E is just as frustrated as I am and we all want to keep our transfer date as in and not have to push it back. As upsetting as it is for me, it is not even close to matching how upset E & A must feel. The pressure is definitely on! E & A said they they went through all the legal and were not picky about a thing so I am glad for that considering we are also not picky hopefully making the contract process more simple. I hope to just go through the steps, understand what is written in the fine print, agree, and sign! Not that this is much to ask but I would like all of that by tomorrow evening, Thank You Mr. Lawyer! (:

I love that I am able to help E & A and the last thing I want is for them to be disappointed. I understand that I cannot control things like this and that maybe pushing our dates back is not the worst thing that could happen but I know how much they want this and it kills to hear their disappointment. I know they are both doing everything they can to make this work meaning contacting everyone connected in helping us do so. I received many many calls yesterday from our nurse, pharmacist, agency representative, to E & A themselves. There are alot of people in this to help us manage these bumps along the way and that definitely makes me feel good to have that much support outside my family/friends. Fingers crossed for no more bumps in the road and smooth sailing from here on out.

Questions: I have been getting a lot of question marks from people when anything pertaining to legal/contracts come up. Yes, we have to have contracts written up that E, A, Ben, and I agree on. This contract states all of our rights and liabilities going into surrogacy making things clear for all of us. It will also include fees, expenses, and all case scenarios whether good or bad. Easiest way to put it is that you should always know what you are getting into and the best way to protect everyone is making it legal.

Next Post: How our contracts are coming along, upcoming appointments, and the start of Lupron, our next medication.

Goodbye Grumpy Monday & Hello Tomorrow Tuesday! (: